Progesterone question? (ooohhh, bbchi?)

So...they did bloodwork after my u/s yesterday and my progesterone was 32. It was 31.8 the day of my 2nd beta. They told me I can stop the PIO shots and go to prometrium suppositories, but now im kinda scared that it will drop while im producing it on my own. Is this a ridiculous way to think?

A little validation please?!

Will you guys please look at my stick LOL? I need to know if I'm crazy or not. It's so so sooo light, but I see it. This picture is after the time limit, but this is how it looked within the time limits as well. Please validate my thoughts.. or kick me in the ass and tell me I've officially gone over the deep end :)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/46604446@N02/4352428748/

I Confess: Progesterone-Fueled Breakouts

Alright...I've been keeping my mouth shut on this subject, but this is getting ridiculous!  I've got zits in places I've never had them before.  Nothing seems to help.  It disgusts me.  My forehead, neck, chest, back.  Grrrooosssss.  Any magic potions you can recommend?  I wish I could get in the tub and soak in some hot water while my face steams...but nooooooo.  My frustration is building....

I confess.. I POAS this morning.

And it was very, very, very faint positive. Like I could see it, but if I looked at it for too long I'd have to refocus to see it again LOL. My husband kept saying is there a line or not..? I told him he'd have to look for himself because my eyes can sometimes play tricks on me. He said he saw it too! Now I have to ponder the fact that I could possibly have HCG left from the trigger. I triggered with 5,000U on 1/31. Any ideas?

A Response to "When is it over?" by Jes

I gave myself a lot of deadlines, *sigh*...

I don't know the answer.  I don't know if there is an answer.  Part of me can't believe that I'm 35 and childless...no, all of me can't believe it.  This wasn't supposed to be my life.  And even though my HPT and Beta were positive...I still can't really believe this is going to happen for me.  Maybe if I'd only tried for a few years...but after more than 7 (even though it was just the natural way) it seems completely, totally, entirely out of my reach.

I had it all planned out, too.  The age at which I'd be married, the age at which we'd start having children (and the age at which we'd be done.)  I can't believe I'm so far off track...35 years of my life are behind me and the thing I thought would be my life's work (raising a family) hasn't even started yet.

And now...I worry that I've lost the ability to be happy.  I've done such a good job at shutting down, at not letting things get to me...even the +HPT couldn't elicit an emotional response.  Everyone at the doctor's office was so excited for me, why couldn't I be excited for myself?  Because, it's early!  Because I know all the things that can/may still go wrong that will cause this to be even worse than just a regular unsuccessful cycle.  I still feel like a failure...I'm still angry that this may never happen for me (and if it does, I had to go through a huge load of shit to get it.)

So yeah...I have no answers for you, Jes.  My guess is that you're not done...you're just feeling extremely emotional right now and that once you get it out of your system (like that ever happens) you'll be ready to go again.

But there does have to be a stopping point, doesn't there?  When you're broke?  When you're broken?  When did that ever stop any of us?

When is it over?

So, I've been having this conversation in my head for a couple of weeks now, and I need to get it out there.
When do I say 'Enough'?
How do I decide if this quest for a child is over?
What is down the other fork in the road...the one w/out kids?

I am a big planner - college, good job, husband, family, grandkids, etc...all planned out. Well, you girls all know how that goes. I'm feeling lost without a plan right now.
So, I had a major breakdown on Sunday night - partially alcohol induced from the Super Bowl party, but that's beside the point - I WAS do for a breakdown.
I just don't know if I can continue on. I don't know if I have it in me to try again, and if I don't, then what??? What's my new plan? Quit the stable job I only took because of benefits and track down my 'dream job', or quit it all and travel the world? Do we sell everything and move to a new city? This is what runs through my head all the time!
I guess I feel like if I give up my journey for a child, then I better fill that hole with something...anything. I can't imagine just trudging through my days as is, w/ out SOME quest.

So, I know that we have so many wonderful BFP's in out group right now, and I am so thrilled for you, but regardless, I think that at one time or another, most of you have had a similar conversation with yourselves.
How do you deal with it? Did you give yourself a 'deadline'? When is the quest over for you?
Sorry to be the 'downer' post, but I value you all so much, and there is no one else that can understand this.

How long does Pregnyl (booster injection) last in your system?

Hey girls,

Can anyone tell me how long Pregnyl lasts in your system? We call it Pregnyl in Aus but I know you guys use a different name. Its the one that you trigger with and then have booster shots of post ET?

When can you do a HPT reliably after an injection?

Bloated or "Showing"???...I'm confused.

I'm only 6 weeks along and I'm already wearing my first bella-band. Crazy!! I'm guessing that my bloating from stims got worse after my BFP, but I'm not sure.

This is my first, so I can't imagine that I'm already showing, so it's got to be bloating. Either way....I wish I could live in sweats!

One Poke or Two?

The doctor said I'd get a second beta if the first one was below 200 (it was above 200.)  Anything above that, they'd just see me in 2 weeks for the first ultrasound.  Am I the only person getting just one beta?  Is this strange...or within the normal range for standard of practice?