Saturday, February 6, 2010

Friday, February 5, 2010

Symptoms

Please humour me with this request as I need more things to fixate on....

For all the BFP ladies what were you symptoms? When did they start? Did you have no symptoms? The more info the better.

Now 5dp2t. Still nada. I remember JPS (I think) saying about a vein in her boob becoming more noticable so b/c of that I am staring at my boobs continuously willing a vein to pop out. I think I see one however I have never looked at my boobs so closely before so it may have always been there.

CM all seems to be exactly the same as it is on any other failed cycle....

Argggghhhh. It is crazy town here.

Things that remind me of you....

I was having dinner tonight with my DH. We've been on a "cleanse" described by Glamour magazine this week which basically is just eating healthy and avoiding crap. We are both looking SLIM!!! But the point of my ramblings....we were having tilapia w/mango salad. And my DH looks at me...love in his eyes...and says, "Ooo, you have MANGO in your hair." And all I could think of was my fellow infertile, MangoPuppy....

TEST

Hey ladies, Just wanted to see if this works!

"First Page" aka What's Your Status?

I've set up a "What's Your Status?" section here on the blog which will serve the same function as the 'First Page' on our old FT cycle threads.  This is where we'll keep track of what stage everyone is in with their cycles.  I've tried to gather as much info as I could from Who Shot My Stork? and the posts and comments here on the blog.  If anyone is missing or would like their status updated, leave a comment below this post and we'll take care of it ASAP.

The daft things we do

[Feel free to go and edit this post to add to it!]

In the 2WW, we buy a large box of tampax in the hope that by spending the money, we'll guarantee you won't need it.

As soon as we get the call from the RE to give ourselves the trigger shot, we use the online due date calculators to find out when the baby would be due.

Even when we know it's a BFN, we still keep taking the meds and not drinking until the BFN is totally confirmed by the RE.

I STILL have no clue what im doing!

Hello ladies! Heres my test blog...i hope it goes where its supposed to go. Hope everyone has a lovely Friday and a great weekend to follow.

Testing 123

I want to see if this shows up as me and not anonymous. Happy Friday ladies! I am so ready for the weekend!!!
This is the bad girls IF club isn't it? My mom always wondered why I always ended up hanging out with the wrong crowd. :) I always seem to fit right in with them for some reason!

Rie

Kelsey you who!!

Just posting this message again in a new thread seen as I know how to do it now!!

KELSEY - You found me! I emailed you as soon as all this crap started as I knew I was going to be taken down. Good going on freezing the embryos. How many fresh embryos are you transferring? We are only allowed to do one in Aus, then only 2 if frozen.

All my embryos were 2 days. Our clinic takes the opinion better to be in me than out. However I have a lot of questions to ask the RE about this when we see him next. Manly from everyone elses situations on here. The more you learn the more questions you have.I am really impressed your parents offered to pay for freezing. That is really kind of them. Its not like you are asking for them to pay for a shiny new pink convertable car!! Plus this will be the gift that keeps on giving!!

I am now 4dp2dt. I feel like it is more like 4 months. I have the week off work and I have been doing nothing other than completely resting (ie eating and watching TV!). No symptoms at all. Not on progesterone as RE said my levels were good last cycle so no need. However that is something I will really question when I see him next. Few twinges but then that could be gas??? No spotting. No sore boobs. Nada......

Start new job in ICU on Mon. Shitting myself. Really should be going over all my uni stuff and study stuff instead of our blogs however this is more fun and helps me mentally!

Just testing...

Ignore this guys. I am just mucking around to see what happens.... I am new to this blogging stuff....

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Phew, Ok, we're all together again...now what?

It was a very creepy feeling to log into FT and find half of you gone. Not just gone, but vanished. All the jokes, bitching, heartache etc, deleted from this world (although probably still in the archive!).

What a big relief to find everyone again. We're almost there on getting everyone via the blog or the group. Deep breath. Yay!!

Even better, we now have options (even though we don't have ninja smilies. I'll look into how we can get that.) As a group, we now have to find our feet on how we want to keep supporting each other.

I'm not a techno geek, but I use quite a few groups and blogs. In general, I find groups are great for quick chit chat and transient stuff and comments. Blogs are really good for people to communicate on something they feel strongly about, something they want to make available to a wider audience. I see that some of our gang already even have their own blogs!

I don't know if KB has this blog set to public, but if she does, then that will allow other IF folks to find us. And if they read some of the incredible stories, insights, commentaries and observations that you ladies have shown such great capacity for on FT, and could post here too, then we might be able to help these new folks. FT did have that ability - that people found us in the JJJA's and Confessions threads and decided we were kindred spirits.

If I were to throw a straw man out there for picking at, I'd like to think that the Confessions blog is a long term, solid, living document, posted to by people who care about eachother and total strangers who may alight here seeking our brand of support. It will generate discussion, and comments and further insight. Links to similar blogs and other stories.

The google group is more of an 'in the moment' gathering space, a place to alight and bitch while you've got stuff going on, but where things come and go and topics evolve and change and you can tune in and out. Perhaps when someone posts something that generates a great deal of discussion on the group, we can cross post onto the blog because it will perhaps be useful to a broader audience?

These are my two cents. I'm going to try and search the FT archive to see if some of the gems from Confessions might still be around for grabbing and re-posting here. Maybe if any of you subscribed to the email feed you'll have them in your inbox archives?! But if not, then we'll have to all think back to what moved us, what really helped us, and try to regenerate those thoughts and many new ones, here.

Serious Respect Vibes to all ladies with IF.
Kiellara.

Up to Speed

A day or two ago, the original Confessions thread was locked by a mod and we were instructed to start a new Confessions thread each week.  A few of us joked that we must be getting closed down because of our mouthing-off about Dave's FT Profile/Crap-for-prizes Contest, which many of us found strange, insulting, and insensitive.

The girls didn't hold back, they told the mod, Dave, and anyone who would listen how they felt about the contest, and questioned the convenient timing of the thread lock-down.  We asked if we could do a monthly thread instead of weekly...a compromise.  "No," was the answer.

The ensuing events are a bit of a blur...but, posts started disappearing, threads were gone...I was in the process of sending my email address in a PM to Mango, just in case something crazy happened...so we'd still be able to have contact, and when I clicked "Send" I received a ban message.  It said "Reason for Ban: None Given"...and looked to me as if I was banned until 08-02-2010...that's right, 6 months to the day.  I went numb!  I started Googling any and every screen name I could remember...hoping to contact at least one of you girls so we could find a way to come back together elsewhere.

I decided to start a blog (a first for me) and include everyone's names I could remember, and certain important keywords, hoping someone else would start Googling and find the blog.  After I got the blog set up, I decided to try a different computer in the house, because up until that point, I hadn't even been able to see FT, let alone post.  Wooooo, I could see FT on the other computers, what a relief.  Apparently Kiellara had come up with a similar idea and had posted a link to her newly formed Google Group, Who Shot My Stork?  I joined her group, sent her a link to the blog...and we were in business!

Since then, many more girls have received bans from FT after posting links to Who Shot My Stork? and Confessions: A Free-Speech Community for IVF Girls.  Putting their FT active status on the line, girl after girl has posted and PMd in an attempt to reach the Lost Girls.

Thank you to everyone who has helped us rebuild our community. 

(I'm sure I've left out some important stuff...feel free to start a post with other "good memories" if you're an author.  And if you're not an author, send me your email address and I'll send you an author invite!)

In Search of A Few Good Women

Kiellara (of Who Shot My Stork?) and I (of this blog) are still hoping to get contact information for the remaining "lost" girls from the original Confessions.  If anyone has contact information, please let them know we're looking for them and we miss them.  (Refer to the list in the Original Confessions post below.)

Aspiring Authors

Whomever would like to be added as an author on this blog (with the ability to write/contribute your own posts)...all I need is your email address to send you an author invite.

The Banished Unite!

For you former JJJAs who would also like to participate in a private Google Group:

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

KB Newsflash: Beta Day!

Ok dudes, brace yourself...my beta was (drumroll...)

621 

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Original Confessions

Once upon a time, on another website, there was an epic thread called "Confessions." This thread was a haven for practical, realistic, sharp-witted girls who got sick of the unicorn-riding, rainbow-kissing, "babydust"-spewing nitwits on nearly every other IVF forum/thread in existence. It is rumored that these women were the descendants of an ancient tribe of infertility warriors called "IVF Veterans." Both groups of women were attacked by a vicious monster, wielding the powerful Club of Censorship. For a time, the women dispersed...many presumed them dead. Their collective strength could not be denied and they soon reconvened...with a wit more biting, a resolve more steadfast, and a powerful weapon of their own: Freedom of Speech!

Calling all JJJAs, Confessions Girls, and FT Rejects!:

MangoPuppy - Found
GoldeLox07 - Found
HolmesHX2 - Found
Ravenswood419 - Found
MrsEshaw - Found
LAP (aka Baroness von Utero) - Found
rie1051 - Found
bbchi - Found
oli - Found
Kiellara - Found
Beka05 - Found
Pemmie - Found
Kelsey00 - Found
barren-bipolar - Found
HRD - Found
summerdays - Found
demold - Found
BabytoB - Found
Momsie - Found
JPS23 - Found
Jes - Found
cvpis4me - Found

Kindhiker - Found
deanandkrissy- Found
bobbiesuehicks- Found
smittygirl- Found
curiousme - Found
hope2bpregnant - Found 
BabyWarrior - Found
...and anyone else I've forgotten

We welcome any new girls who think they might fit in with our rebellious and "scarcastic" ways!