Finally!

Finally I can say the word 'BFP'! It feels so surreal, can't really believe it yet. May be it will happen after first US, when I see something other than follicles and lining.

IF Girl Once...IF Girl Always?

I told my mom yesterday that IF had changed me.  I told her that no matter what success we have with IVF, I will never be the person I was before.  I told her that I still haven't had an emotional reaction to the +POAS, the +Beta, or the HBs on the U/S.  I don't know when I'll be able to let myself be happy about this and believe it's going to turn out okay.  I worry that time will never come.

I've heard that some people who have lost a considerable amount of weight...no matter what they see in the mirror or on the scale, they still feel like the same overweight person on the inside.  I feel like regardless of what happens (no matter how good)...inside, I will still be the Infertile Girl.

Thoughts, feelings, experiences?

I confess.. I POAS this morning.

And it was very, very, very faint positive. Like I could see it, but if I looked at it for too long I'd have to refocus to see it again LOL. My husband kept saying is there a line or not..? I told him he'd have to look for himself because my eyes can sometimes play tricks on me. He said he saw it too! Now I have to ponder the fact that I could possibly have HCG left from the trigger. I triggered with 5,000U on 1/31. Any ideas?

Bloated or "Showing"???...I'm confused.

I'm only 6 weeks along and I'm already wearing my first bella-band. Crazy!! I'm guessing that my bloating from stims got worse after my BFP, but I'm not sure.

This is my first, so I can't imagine that I'm already showing, so it's got to be bloating. Either way....I wish I could live in sweats!

HRD Newsflash: First UltraSound Today

I got to see the little, tiny sac on the ultrasound screen today. At only 5w, 3days along...there's not a lot to see, but it was still amazing to see anything other than my enlarged follicles on the screen. Looks like one little baby onboard for us!

We go back on the 20th for our next ultrasound. At that time, we should (are are praying to) see a little, strong heartbeat.

One Poke or Two?

The doctor said I'd get a second beta if the first one was below 200 (it was above 200.)  Anything above that, they'd just see me in 2 weeks for the first ultrasound.  Am I the only person getting just one beta?  Is this strange...or within the normal range for standard of practice?

Bbchi Newsflash: Here we go again....

1st # 737! Could be 2? Hope not 3! 2nd beta Wednesday then I think we're holding off w/ultrasound till 2/24 because we'll be 6 wks and a few days then and should be able to see heartbeats. I hate that 5+ wk ultrasound where you're not sure if it's really a go or not. Too painful. Although, I may die of the suspense until then. Well, I probably won't actually die. Bit dramatic, I suppose.

I Confess: Dogs & Sneezes

I confess...I'm currently worrying about two silly things: dogs & sneezes.

Last night, my mom's small but heavy-for-his-size dog pounced on my lap and one of his paws landed squarely on what I think was my uterus.  It hurt for a few seconds.  Did it dislodge the sesame seed?

I've been having crazy-bad allergies for the last 24 hours.  I'm sneezing a lot...and quite vigorously, which means lots of intense abdominal muscle contractions.  Is the sesame seed now sesame paste?

Please take a look at my blog

Take a look into my pee stick and tell me what you see!! Please tell me I'm not imagining things. Click on the photos for a better look. I'm 8dp3dt

Fearlessly Infertile

KB Newsflash: Beta Day!

Ok dudes, brace yourself...my beta was (drumroll...)

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