Damn Symptoms..

Cramps or no cramps.. I don't know what makes me feel better. I was cramping a bit yesterday and feeling all excited (maybe implantation?!). Then I was laying in bed last night for what seemed like forever because I couldn't shut my mind off, and what I finally figured out is that in a normal cycle I would be getting my period about now, so the cramps are probably my body wanting to start my period, but good ol' IM progesterone isn't allowing it. Damn it. I'm 3dp6dt. Now I don't know HOW I want to feel.

Then, I was so furious yesterday because I got a bill from the hospital for an ultrasound at the beginning of stims when my RE let me do them in my hometown. I usually go to my OB for the first 3, but this one fell on a Saturday and he was going to be gone for the weekend. So I went into the hospital and the on call ultrasound tech came in. First off, she was very rude. She told me she wanted to start abdominally and I told her we always do them vaginally and the time the other ultrasound place in town tried it abdominally she couldn't see anything and I got charged for both, blah, blah, blah.. But what do I know?! She said since she's never scanned me before she was gonna try it abdominally. Well (obviously) we ended up transvaginally. After already being irritated that she wouldn't listen to me, the ultrasound took 40 MINUTES!! And..to top it off.. she wouldn't let me see the screen. So I'm staring at the ceiling, legs wide, wondering when it's gonna be over.. She didn't even talk to me the entire time. So, anyway, the point I'm getting at is I got the bill today and it's $594!!! They DID charge me for both. I'm calling today because I'm so pissed off. My OB charges me like $130. This is bullshit!!!

Anyway, thanks for listening. The things I think of at night when I can't fall asleep..

Bloated or "Showing"???...I'm confused.

I'm only 6 weeks along and I'm already wearing my first bella-band. Crazy!! I'm guessing that my bloating from stims got worse after my BFP, but I'm not sure.

This is my first, so I can't imagine that I'm already showing, so it's got to be bloating. Either way....I wish I could live in sweats!

Stupid Sphincter!

Here I sit, at nearly three-thirty in the morning.  Being awake at this time of day has become somewhat routine of late, but the not-being-in-bed is new.

My lower esophageal sphincter isn't exactly doing its job.  I've had a couple of throw-up-in-my-mouth moments over the last couple of days (intended burps)...and tonight, as I lay in bed listening to the gurgles coming out of my throat and mouth, and felt each burp turn into a rush of burning pain in my esophagus, I decided to bring myself upright.  Ah, relief...to an extent.

Thanks, Progesterone! :-D

Symptoms

Please humour me with this request as I need more things to fixate on....

For all the BFP ladies what were you symptoms? When did they start? Did you have no symptoms? The more info the better.

Now 5dp2t. Still nada. I remember JPS (I think) saying about a vein in her boob becoming more noticable so b/c of that I am staring at my boobs continuously willing a vein to pop out. I think I see one however I have never looked at my boobs so closely before so it may have always been there.

CM all seems to be exactly the same as it is on any other failed cycle....

Argggghhhh. It is crazy town here.

Kelsey you who!!

Just posting this message again in a new thread seen as I know how to do it now!!

KELSEY - You found me! I emailed you as soon as all this crap started as I knew I was going to be taken down. Good going on freezing the embryos. How many fresh embryos are you transferring? We are only allowed to do one in Aus, then only 2 if frozen.

All my embryos were 2 days. Our clinic takes the opinion better to be in me than out. However I have a lot of questions to ask the RE about this when we see him next. Manly from everyone elses situations on here. The more you learn the more questions you have.I am really impressed your parents offered to pay for freezing. That is really kind of them. Its not like you are asking for them to pay for a shiny new pink convertable car!! Plus this will be the gift that keeps on giving!!

I am now 4dp2dt. I feel like it is more like 4 months. I have the week off work and I have been doing nothing other than completely resting (ie eating and watching TV!). No symptoms at all. Not on progesterone as RE said my levels were good last cycle so no need. However that is something I will really question when I see him next. Few twinges but then that could be gas??? No spotting. No sore boobs. Nada......

Start new job in ICU on Mon. Shitting myself. Really should be going over all my uni stuff and study stuff instead of our blogs however this is more fun and helps me mentally!